Love, marriage and accidents...

Hey all,

So, life happened again while I was busy... waiting. One week ago, my hubby made a ride on his motorcycle and got hit by a car... Just a few blocks away from home! Thankfully, he saw it coming so he slowed down. And thankfully the woman that hit him with her car was pulling up, so both of them weren't speeding. But she was wrong. Pascal had the right of way, and she just didn't see him so she pulled up. He flew over her hood and broke his wrist and knee in the process. After the cops came and things were taken care off, I drove hubby to the Emergency Room. We waited and waited, even inbetween being helped. Pictures were taken and proved his broken wrist and knee. The knee fracture shouldn't be a big problem, so they just gave him some sort of sturdy stocking. But still, it hurts.

The wrist fracture is a neat one too, but the little bones inside his hand are dislocated and that's worse. That could lead to loss of power in his hand. :S So, after returning to the hospital yesterday and having new pictures taken, the doctor said he wants to be on the safe side and hubby has to have a scan next week. The week after that we can come back to find out the results and planning. If things don't appear to heal on their own, hubby will have to undergo a surgery. So, we're back to waiting again. Yuck.

In the midst of all this madness my brother got married this week. We were supposed to go their bachelor-parties Saturday, but that's the evening we spent at the hospital, so. Sunshine-wise the day started out fine, and even though it wasn't a big party, it was okay with the few people who attended. I made them the canvas shown below, and I made 2 cards, one from me and one from my dad.

Let me know if you like it! Happy scrapping, XOXO.

Here's the first card:

And the second card:

Some serious T-shirt pimpin'!!!

Hey there,

Gosh, back so soon? Yup, 'cause I actually managed to create something! If all goes well, my friend Monique and I will be going to the Scrap a Fairytale weekend again, it's supposed to take place mid June. So, I thought it'd be fun if we made a T-shirt to wear to that event. A scrap shirt.

So, yesterday Monique came over and we were quite busy for many hours. She did a purple one, I did a fuchsia one. (Only my favorite color in the whole wide world!!!) It's a shame we didn't do any 'pre-pics', but I guess you know what a plane Tee looks like, right? :P

First, I stamped on the checkered background, then, I scrapped the letters "SCRAP" on the background. I made the 'S' out of 2 colours felt, the 'C' was made with metal studs and paint, the 'R' was made from white buttons, the 'A' was made from eyelets with silver ribbon laced through it and the 'P' was formed from ric-rac-ribbon.

I added a patch with 'punk', 'cause well, I scrap and I dig punky outfits/music/scrappin'/etc. I like to be/dress sweet and feminine with a little punky edge, you know?

Anyway, here's the result. I'm kinda proud of it, I have to add. (Well, all but the 'C' , I kinda messed that one up, but it will have to do...)

If you like it, let me know! If you have any questions about something I did, write me!

See ya! Happy scrappin'! XOXO

My 2nd publication!!!

Hey all,

Yup, I've been a BAD blogger again! Bad scrapper too, for that matter... ;-) Again, I'm NOT in a scrapmood, strangely enough. I'm having a few days off and I wanted to scrap yesterday, but first I had to clean out my scrap-space. That took me HOURS!!! :-( When I was done, the inspiration had vanished, LOL.

However, the "Scrapbook" magazine that featured a LO and card I was asked to create for it, finally got published! Here are some screencaps of the front, and the pages with my work featured on it. (On the bottom page only the card on the left is my creation.)
God and it sounds so vain, but I'm not nearly as excited as I was when I got published the first time... You get used to it, I guess... :P


Further more, my brother and his (now) fiancee are getting married, very soon! May 12th. They're expecting, so they wanted to take care of that before the kid is due. Which will be somewhere in August. I took some pictures of them and I'm gonna scrap them something with these pics. Hope they'll like it. Hope I'll be inspired in time, too.


Happy Scrappin'! XOXO

Spring has finally sprung!

Hey all,

Yeah, I know I have been MIA for a while, but I'm still around, LOL. I wasn't in a scrap-mood at all lately, somehow. The third IVF-attempt failed again, but I coped with it miraculously well. I am starting to experience some more trouble dealing with it, slowly. Next week we have to out gyneacologist again, and we'll see where we go from there.

After watching "My So-Called Life", I have been losing myself into fanfic again. That GREAT show ended so abruptly and left me so thoroughly unsatisfied, I had to create my own ending. I am still not finished after writing like 11 episodes. Writing is so difficult, I had to re-write almost all of the stories. The sentence-structure was boring, and there were times I strayed from the characters too much. Ugh. But it's fun trying to think what Jordan Catalano (played by Jared Leto...) would do :P

Further more, it's march. March is the month when my mother's birthday used to be, and my dad's birthday still is. We've had a bachelorette-party and wedding from my (beautiful looking!)niece, and both were great and big fun, but I really missed having my mom around :(

Last Thursday (March 19) it has been 3 years ago already since she passed away. Time goes by fast, but my feelings have trouble keeping up with time.

I did make some Valentine's Day Cards, and I will show them to you. I made some for my DH, my dad, brother and some friends. Also, I made a card and little giftbox for my niece's wedding. It says "JA" on the card, which means "Yes", which ofcourse it the key-word on a wedding-day ;)

One tip: NEVER make stuff only a few hours before the wedding...My hands and nails were covered in BLACK maya mist...:S Not so smart, I guess.

I am beginning to get excited about scrapping again now Spring has finally sprung. We've had SO little sunshine lately and so much rain and dreariness, it was becoming really depressing. But now, I'm looking forward to the new things that are coming out, by Prima, and Maya Road for example. I NEED the new Rebellious Line by Prima, and the American Crafts Teen line is on my wishlist too. I guess you could say I'm in the mood for some scrap-shopping :) But first I have to clean up my desk, there's still clutter lying on it from my last 3 projects or so. Ugh!!! :S

But, I'm in the mood for more refreshing changes, like around the house. Yesterday we bought some wallpaper for the hallway, it's kinda creamy with a green baroque-print. And I washed all my windows, after a loooooong time. Washed my car too, so I feel good about being busy. Cleaned up the house and made hubby move the TV-cabinet. So, I'm gonna go and enjoy my clean house and mind in a short while.

Happy Scrapping! XOXO

Counting the years isn't the same as making the years count...

Hey there,

Haven't been scrapping much lately, 'cause I am not in the mood to sit in my attic all alooooooone. I am more into watching the telly, and especially my recently bought DVD series of "My so-called life". I had to watch that show, as die-hard Jared Leto-worshipper, ofcourse ;) And I must say I am enjoying it thoroughly...He's so darn cute! But vague, heartbreakingly vague even. The serie gets to me, I am back in highschool instantly. All insecure, withdrawn, head over heels in love with someone I can never call my own...So depressing, so recognizable. I had made a deal with myself to watch 1 episode every day of the week, every workday more specifically. Since there are 19 episodes, I should have been able to enjoy the series for almost a whole month! Go figure...Got the DVD on Monday, and I have only 3 episodes left to watch...Teehee..And I really can't imagine why the show got cancelled after 1 season!!!

Regarding my 3rd IVF attempt: I had a fertilized egg implanted in my woom again, last Thursday. Last Monday they "harvested" my eggs, and the count was kinda disappointing. There were 5 follikcels (?), but only 3 eggs. Of those 3 eggs only 1 was fertilized. Bummer. But, at least there was 1 fertilized. So, now we have to wait again for almost 2 weeks, to see if this little egg decides to stick with me. I do feel more positive than the previous time. Let's hope it will work, because I don't know how much more disappointments I can take :(

I actually did a little scrappy project too, I had started on it like 2 weeks ago, and was finally in the mood to finish it! It's basically a transparant LO, framed by a currogated board with a circle cut from it. Did some painting, embossing, glimmer misting, stamping, etc. As title & journaling I used the phrase "Counting the years isn't the same as making the years count..." I thought this sentence was appropiate for the engagement picture of my parents. (Back in 1973) As my mom passed away almost 3 years ago, we are so very much aware that it is soooo important to make the times you have together count. Seconds chances rarely happen...

I would love it if you would take a look at my LO and leave me some LUV! And remember to let your loved ones know they are loved by you!!! Perhaps a nice Valentine's Day card, a date or a present...? I still want to make some Valentine's cards of my own. Any nice ideas/links/sketches/whatever? Let me know!

Happy scrapping, happy living & loving. XOXO

P.S. The woodgrain-like background is actually my floor, since the LO is clear... :) )

Winter Wonder Land

Hey you,

So, I didn't even mention that we are experiencing a REAL winter over here! It hasn't happened in yeeeeaaaars, so it is somewhat special. I have to admit though I am NOT a big fan of cold, brrrr....I hate my static hair and dry skin, I hate wearing so much clothing and still feeling cold. I hate the slippery roads, de-icing my car every morning and drive to my work feeling cold and frosty like a snowman...

However...I have to say: it looks GORGEOUS!!! And as much as I hate admitting it, you get used to the weatherconditions. That's the problem with this country and this climate, we don't get long cold winters, we get rain. And an occasional snow day. So we never get a chance to adjust ourselves, learn to get up earlier due to the de-icing, traffic and slippery roads. But it looks like we're gonna experience winter a bit longer this year...

And as a follow-up to my last blog-entry, I have a LO that goes with my feelings...Did this LO after finding out another person near to me is pregnant, whereas I have been trying for almost 3,5 years to become a mom.

Life gets just too much sometimes. I feel like Ruby Gloom, all gloomy. During the last 3,5 years my mom got cancer and passed away, I got into a identity-crisis, my marriage almost ended, I found out I have endometriosis, I lost 20 kilo's weight but gained them back, more people near me passed away, I had 2 failed IVF attempts (including the emotional and hormonal rollercoaster), while friends/colleagues/familymembers around me got pregnant, some even twice!

So basically the misery just did not END! I am fed up with this misery and want it to STOP!!! There is some more personal journaling which I hid behind the journaling ON the page.

I just want to be happy, and make the people I love happy. I want our dream to come true.

Hope you ARE happy though! XOXO, happy scrapping, see ya!

And a happy new year...

Hey there,

Let me start off by wishing you all a very happy, healthy, cosy, loving, creative 2009!

To me, New Year's Eve is one of the most overrated Holidays of the year. I don't get the fuss. Maybe I am too negative, but it's a night like all the other nights. We stare at the TV, bored, whilst stuffing our faces with fattening food. (Like we need more after those Christmas Days...!)But it's a good time to look back and reflect, right?

Overall the year was okay. My work went well. My brother had to go away with the army for 4 months but came back safely. I bought a "new" car. And I was still loved by my DH, and became more and more certain we had made the right decision by sticking together.

Scrap-wize, there were many positive things:

* I scrapped a lot after losing my MOJO for quite some time, and rediscovered my own style(s)

* I got published in "Creatief Met Foto's"
* I got to create a LO and card for the magazine "The Scrapbook", using (tons of) their materials
* I made "The Catwalk" at "SIStv"
* I had a fabulous, fun, and scrappy "Scrap a Fairytale" weekend
* I went to the "Kreadoe" where I bought new scrap things (that were actually on my wishlist)

However, I do hope this year will be better than last year...Because this whole year has been hard because of my big wish, my wish to have a baby. And this whole year was about that one wish, with all the medicines I was given and had to inject myself with. All the moodswings I have been suffering (and still am) because of those hormones. I don't know anymore what feelings are my own: am I supposed to be depressed? Or feel so distant? Or go from emotion to emotion faster than a brandnew sports car reaches it's topspeed?

The hormones, the emotions, the let-downs after 2 failed IVF attempts...The whole world seems to be pregnant, and give birth, twice even, since we have started trying. It is so much too bare. And so few people understand this desire and what it does to you. Mentally as well as physically. I gained back all the weight I had lost about 2 years ago. It saddens me, I feel like a fat pig again. Especially since I already feel like less of a woman because I cannot do what apparently almost any woman can do. I can't make us happy.

And the only person who understood me, is gone. This March she will be gone for 3 years already. My mom. The one and only person who really got me, who knew exactly what to say to make me feel better. She was wise with her advice, and able to make me see a brighter future.

Thank God through this entire year I realised how much I love my DH, and how happy I am we made it through my identity-crisis after losing my mom. And how much I want to share something we created together, more than life itself.

Yesterday I started injecting myself again for our 3rd IVF attempt. The last one to be refunded by our medical insurance. Let's hope we won't need to do any more, because I don't know how much more I can take. Mentally, physically, financially.

I want "my time" to be now. This year...